Damn it Clem.

I know I have been having this mood swing. My thoughts cant stop running.  And this song cant stop touching my heart and it always reminds me of you. No matter what you re doing now, ignoring me this way. I dont know what you want. Suddenly you just dissapear. I know i ve been lazy and bored too. I just get bored of  talking via social media. I need a progress. But it doesnt mean i want to stop talking. Even though we met online, it doesnt mean im not real. Im a human being. I have feelings. I can be ignorance sometimes. But right now, im thinking why . I ve ever said. You re not just some people. You re someone whom i ve ever had feelings for.

Do the other boys like this? I dont make friends good from reality.  I make friends online better. Does it mean all this time i ve been making friends is a fake friendship? or fake reality ? We cant meet face to face, that s the use of social media, to keep someone in touch. You re not trying to, not anymore.

You suck clem. You re a coward. Be grateful that i had feelings for you and you re playing with it. Damn it. This is just the remain

Goodbye. Hello

I felt nothing since u didn't talk to me. It was all of sudden. U said u were busy, but no matter how busy u were u always tried to contact me at least once a day.I know we never made it. I know i was rushing. I guess this is all because i have been single for years, and i live around friends who already have someone by their side. It s not just friends. everyday, everywhere, PDA, couples and i always wonder how it feels to have someone who actually loves you. It is weird. I never felt it. It looks like adding someone else to your life. Your life getting heavier but sometimes it is sweet. I have been borrowing my friends' ear to listen to my confusion about relationship. How can somebody living with someone else forever.

JC.I know you re a coward. Your words are sweet. It was great. But it was the same level as what i m thinking so, .. i realise i need someone more mature. Who thinks beyond what i think.