Im on my last semester, and im always on my last semester. what remains to finish is a recital and my thesis. I feel so tired doing things I dont like, which is my music composition the recital. It is just a music composition is something that has to be honest from the person itself, but my lecturer keeps forcing me to do things that doesnt make sense, and i dont really like it. Im an idealist. Its really hard to force myself to do this non sense, so i keep procrastinating. My family, no one understands. They just keep asking when will i graduate and compare me to other people. I feel like im being pressurized from every side. I m so pissed and envy seeing other people happiness, I just hope everyone can feel what Im feeling. I want to escape from this world and start a new life or if there s no way to escape I want to end this kind of life im so tired